Happy Birthday Macie Elisabeth

Today’s the day we celebrate the little tiny life of our daughter Macie Elisabeth.  It’s hard to believe it’s been five years ago that I found out we were having our first girl and that she was not going to live here on earth with us.  My husband remembers not only loosing his daughter but almost loosing his wife this day five years ago.

I always think . . . this year I won’t feel that grief.   I mean really, I’ve got a great life!  Grief’s a funny thing though.  It sneaks up on you, it disguises it’s self.  You don’t know that’s what you’re feeling until. . .you do.   There must be something about the Dallas airport (that’s where I’m writing from) that makes me cry!  see what I mean here:   https://legacytheblog.flywheelsites.com/?p=156

Macie’s little life still has a huge impact on our family.  The two most obvious to me:  Clint and I may never have considered adoption.  I knew God had a daughter for us and I knew I wasn’t about to have any more babies!  And I would have never, ever considered bereavement photography which oddly enough has been a place of great healing for me

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To all my nilmdts families . . . I feel your pain.  I’m so sorry that God has brought you to a place that seems too hard to get through.  He never promised there would be no hardship.  Only that He would hold you through it.  I am a testimony that not only will  He hold you through it, but when he lets you put your feet down to walk beside Him again you’ll be stronger than you were before your heart was broken.

We love you little Macie!