Just thinking. . .

I’m not too much of a journal writer but when big things come up I find myself journaling just to keep from driving my friends and family crazy.  I’ve been doing a lot of spring cleaning this year and have come across several journals from over the years written mostly in times of big disappointment or indecision.  I found one on Friday that I wrote in the spring of 2005.  A job opportunity had arisen down a road I was certain God was preparing me to travel.  But due to family circumstances and finances we just couldn’t find a way to make it work.  I was heartbroken.  I was certain this is what I was called to do.  On the pages of the journal I poured out my heart to God asking why this opportunity would present itself in a time that I could not pursue it?  Why would He prepare me in a way that looked so obviously fit to this job but yet I had to turn it down?  Nearly four years later as I am reading my words I am thinking “thank you”.  Thank you for closing that door.  Thank you for knowing me better than I know myself.  Thank you that You love me so much that You took years to prepare me to become what You’ve called me to be so that when it was time I could do it well and do it for You.  Several times on those pages I asked the question. . . “then what is your plan?  What are you calling me to do?”  Now, four years later I can say. . . “Oh!  Good call.  I love this way better!”  God has used so many things in my life to prepare me for this journey as a photographer and I am so grateful!  So that’s my Monday morning musing.  I hope that if you are in a place of indecision or disappointment that you know you can call out to the living God and He will answer.  (Note:  it could take four years before you put it together but that might just be me)  God is good.  All the time.  And since this post reminds my of my friend Kristin here are a couple of images taken in “old towne” when I visited her in Albuquerque in January.  It was warm there. . .